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By Madame X @ 2006
Instruction is guidance and expansion, and it begins with a good mentor who is motivated to establish solid learning foundations. Good compatible mentors are not easy to find. Ultimately it falls on the seekers’ shoulders to find the right mentor for themselves, and be determined to learn and grow.

Foundations are paramount. Let’s say the seeker wants to learn sigil magic. The instructor may request the seeker to conduct some research on symbology, numerology, the history of a particular symbol or emblem, or even an essay comparing and contrasting ancient cultural symbols. The seeker may think that is irrelevant, but such periphery is important to establish a foundation upon which to build on. A mentorship association is as good as the effort that both parties (mentor and seeker) direct to it. It is essential that the mentor be motivated to cultivate learning, but the student “will get out of it as much as they put into it.” Laziness, reluctance to comply with guidelines, avoidance, unavailability, or failure to meet deadlines and desired goals is generally frowned upon behavior. Although this is not formal schooling, the student must continually exhibit interest, dedication, availability and the desire to excel. It is not uncommon that the instructor will simply wait for the completion of one ‘forgotten’ assignment before issuing another, or simply dismiss a lacking student

Assignments may include: demonstrations, research, reading, written or oral presentations, application of studied methods, ritual observation and participation, interaction with specific individuals, interviews, watching specific programs, guided meditations and personal meditative exercises, power exchange, community participation, attending specific events, executing a post or providing a direct service, developing an idea, streamlining a process, procuring specific tools or garb, any combination of the above or any other effective teaching method the instructor may have in mind. Some may utilize more edgy methods of instruction, like corporeal stimulation, sensory deprivation, sleep deprivation, isolation, restraints, humiliation, emotional catharsis, worship and other variations of sadomasochism toward a pointed end. It behooves the student to ask their potential mentor what methods they utilize, what will be expected of them, and to know their personal boundaries as to avoid any surprises and bad feelings.

An instructor may become your buddy and best friend, but it should not be the expected outcome of such a relationship. Some instructors like to keep their personal feelings and their dayside lives private; students should not expect instructors to become their best friends. If feelings deepen between parties, there is nothing more important than communication. Instruction and learning can work equally well in a formal teacher-student relationship, in a friendship, or in a loving relationship, provided that both parties are in agreement as to what the relationship parameters are, and that adequate focus is still maintained on the guidance-learning dimension; although many mentors and seekers alike prefer formal teacher student relationships where the lines are not crossed.

Any responsible instructor will not just simply handover their writings/books to the student, but will encourage the seeker to write his or her own. Rank and promotions do not come easy with any conscientious mentor or organization. A seeker should wish not only for the merit and recognition of ascension, but for the personal growth and development that comes with it. Neither because they had sex with the mentor, nor because they have ascertained a certain level of intimacy with them, not even if they read, stole, or possess the mentor’s book(s). This is not TV-land; knowledge cannot be stolen. Knowledge, Wisdom and Acumen are gained by personal effort, research, communication, application and experience. We can learn without mentors and without teachers; we can simply rely on our own inspiration, motivation and desire to do so, the information is out there. A good instructor however, guides the seekers efforts, expands their horizons, and establishes solid foundations upon which the seeker can build a firm future and one day become a responsible mentor themselves.

Below are some guidelines that help establish good student-teacher relationships. These guidelines may be particularly helpful to seekers who being new in the community may not know what to do, look for, or expect.

Good Seekers/Students:
• Do research on their desired mentor(s) to determine if they are recognized by the community, if they are established and well regarded.
• Have an open discussion about past experiences and future desires with their prospective mentor(s) to determine if there is a solid compatibility of ethics, interests and teaching methods.
• Are skeptics by nature and not easily impressed, particularly when it comes to unwarranted flattery, self-congratulatory story telling, and dubious tall-tales, even if told by their (potential) mentor.
• Learn to identify manipulation, probing and lies from community members and similarly learn to identify goodwill, honesty, and responsible behavior.
• Are open with their mentor about their boundaries, shortcomings, phobias, expectations and desires.
• Reserve and are available for periodic scheduled sessions to discuss nightside issues, assignments, personal development, and to expand their learning, by asking questions and providing service.
• Regard sessions and discussions with mentor as private and exert extreme discretion when relaying any part of such interactions. Knowledge and information has been passed on to you as seekers, and you are not qualified to pass on this information to anyone until you are considered an adult of the community or Calmae. Realize that a little knowledge is a dangerous thing.
• Realize that instruction comes in steps, and that foundations must be established before moving on to the next level.
• Are patient and maintain a positive outlook.
• Complete assignments in a timely responsible fashion and accept constructive criticism as an expansion of their learning curve.
• Seek to obtain knowledge and information from a variety of sources by using some creative and critical thinking.
• Utilize personal time to engage in reading, interaction and introspection that will expand learning and personal nightside development.
• Demonstrate initiative by taking on personal projects and participating in community projects.
• Know their boundaries and time constraints, and abstain from overburdening their schedule by prioritizing and eliminating unnecessary ventures.
• Become an extension of their mentor offering when needed assistance, protection, representation, and becoming the mentor’s eyes and ears in the community.
• Regard their mentor highly with loyalty and respect, and foment the same attitude in those around them.
• Realize that there is little to gain and much to lose by disrespecting, exasperating, frustrating or otherwise needlessly waste the mentor’s time and patience.
• Take credit for and are accountable for their work as students and their decisions as adults.
• Do not solicit nor demand personal, private or dayside information from their mentor.
• Balance their dayside and nightside duties and responsibilities and will take recess when needed to resolve pertinent issues.
• Respect the experience of their mentor, and avoid those individuals that their mentor has cautioned them against.
• Uphold their reputation and the reputation of their mentor and to ensure both will refrain from engaging in illegal, criminal, or destructive behavior.

Good mentors/instructors:
• Should be recognized as community Elders or at least as Calmae. Seekers, fledglings, or newbie’s cannot be considered teachers of any sort.
• Have the endorsement of other community individuals and at least One Elder if Calmae and 3 Elders if of Elder status. So seekers do your advance research.
• Study potential students over a period of time before welcoming them into the fold. Some mentors even expect seekers to prove their merit before accepting them as students.
• Demonstrate patience, positivism and flexibility.
• Evaluate the level of aptitude, understanding and readiness of the student before proceeding to teach or assign any projects.
• Provide challenging projects that meet the seekers interests, build foundations, and cultivate learning.
• When assignment is complete, provide recognition of student’s achievement, constructive criticism, and topic expansion guidance.
• Are periodically available to privately discuss pertinent topics real time, i.e.: in-person, on the phone, or via on-line chat.
• Are available to be a sounding board for ideas and to give solid council when needed on nightside and dayside issues, offering the student not only tutelage but also protection when needed.
• Encourage seekers to think abstractly, out of the box and research alternate forms of information.
• Encourage seekers to demonstrate initiative by taking on personal projects and community involvement.
• Solicit their student’s assistance with research or development for specific projects, always recognizing and accrediting individual helpers.
• Share personal stories when they may aid current situations and as a way to better identify with the seeker.
• Share past-life recollections or divinatory visions only when the seeker is ready, open, and when the sharing is purposeful to the seeker’s path.
• Consider their interaction with students/wards to be sacred and private, exerting extreme discretion when disclosing any part of it to other community members.
• Turn away seekers when their own plate is full, when the seeker is an incompatible match, when the seeker has serious unresolved dayside issues, when the seeker is unavailable or disinterested, or when the seeker engages in dangerous, illegal, or destructive behavior. Often mentors will direct seekers to other potential instructors.
• Discourage seekers from associating with dangerous, destructive, or criminal individuals by relaying valuable information and personal experience.
• May keep their dayside matters private and separate from mentorship interaction but they value and balance they dayside issues responsibly and will encourage seekers to do the same.

Poor mentors:
• Sit seekers on their proverbial lap and tell self-congratulatory stories of their past deeds adnosium… instead of being awestruck, try to confirm and validate their stories.
• Openly, casually, or publicly tell tales of their past lives or yours. Such sharing should be in private confidence at appropriate times and places. These are lame tools devised to impress the impressionable.
• Openly, casually or publicly recount study sessions, criticize student behavior or demonstrate a lack of secrecy when it comes to student/ward interaction.
• Say ‘learn only from my writings’… instead learn from many points of view and form your own perspectives.
• Have no old friends and surround themselves with a plethora of newbies. There are big warning flags in this ‘cycling people’ behavior; so get ready to be recycled.
• Constantly burn bridges with other community members. We all have issues but true Elders seek to resolve them with responsible accountability.
• Befriend seekers too quickly and make lofty promises of quick ascensions, this is a bad form of flattery.
• Negotiate knowledge, information, ascensions, or recognition for physical or emotional intimacy. Never accept such bargains.
• After so many years in the community, decide that a mere seeker with limited awareness is suddenly their right-hand-person; this is another bad form of flattery. Such close relationships are developed over time.
• Bestow empty inflated titles, even if just for affect. Such effects are ‘lies’ and far from honorable distinctions. Do not implicate yourself with titles that you have not earned nor with those that concede to bear those empty titles.
• Lie or manipulate. You may not be the recipient of the lie or manipulation this time, but I assure you, it’s coming your way. Don’t be an accomplice in these devises.
• Struggle to keep their dayside afloat on a consistent basis. This is not a worthy teacher; he/she should take a sabbatical and get their dayside together first.
• Accept students with and without potential alike. Here students are seen as a personal validation. A good mentor is discriminating and does not waste their time with those who lack the beacon.
• Embrace a multitude of students, wards or chylder. Mentoring someone is a great responsibility and it should not be taken lightly. Expect little results out of this association.
• Embrace or associate with minors. This is illegal and has so many legal ramifications that it is best to avoid this person all together.
• Encourage illegal behavior like substance abuse, intoxication and irresponsible sexual conduct. Great parties, maybe, but you are putting yourself and your reputation in danger.
• Encourage seekers to turn away from dayside family or obligations, instead of encouraging better understanding of the needs of dayside family and directing attention to the importance of dayside duties. Although you may want these dreaded responsibilities to go away, only bad mentors will discourage you from facing your adult duties.
• Forbid students from associating with past associates or other community individuals. Although seekers should be discouraged from pursuing associations with questionable or dangerous individuals, as adults they are entitled to follow their path…wherever it might lead them.
• Utilize their students to research and write articles anonymously or as they unpaid shadow writers. Always insist on credit for what you research and create.



By Deacon Gray

Graveyard Press Staff Writer

Tuesday, October 24, 2012


Facing pressure from Wiccan groups, and Americans United for Separation of Church and State, the Arlington County Court relented yesterday and allowed Literata Hurley to gain the right to perform Wiccan/ Pagan based wedding ceremonies.

 “The Arlington County Court refused to grant me the right to perform marriages in Virginia, apparently on the grounds that my “congregation” does not own a building. I presented my certificate of ordination and documentation of the 501c3 status of the Order of the White Moon, which ordained me. Since my Order is incorporated in California, the secretary asked me if I had a congregation in Virginia; I said yes. She asked me to list the address of the congregation, and I said that we don’t have a building. She asked, “So, what, you just meet in each other’s homes?” I said yes, we meet in each other’s homes, or out of doors.

She left and came back with the Clerk of Court, Paul Ferguson. Mr. Ferguson said that they were not going to approve me. I asked if it was because we don’t have a building. He said, “Yes, you don’t have a building, and there were a few other things.” I asked him if he would give me a written list of the reasons I was being denied. He refused; he offered to show me the relevant section (Sec 20-23) of the Virginia Code. I assured him that I had read the Code, and asked again if he would give me more specific reasons I was being denied. He said that approving these applications was at his “discretion” and that he didn’t “feel” I met the qualifications, but he wouldn’t tell me how. He told me that I could apply to another court in another county but that he thought they would probably give me the same answer.”

In 2006 Arlington faced another such incident when they made international news for not allowing one of our fallen soldiers the right to a grave marker with a Wiccan symbol. This ended in a prolonged battle with the President Bush’s administration.  Eventually with court cases looming, and a large outcry from the soldiers and citizens of this country, the Bush Administration gave ground and allowed the headstones to be allowed in that famous cemetery.

For Literata Hurley the process took nearly as long.  She set about at once to seek help and advice from the ACLU, Americans United for the Separation of Church and State, and the Lady Liberty League. Then she made a call out to the whole Virginia based pagan community stating “get the word out. The more Pagans pull together, the better our chances of being recognized as “legitimate” in these kinds of situations.”

The response was everything she could have hoped for. “Americans United for Separation of Church and State sent a letter to the Arlington County Court in support of my application to perform weddings. They are very clear about the situation:

“Your denial of Priestess Hurley’s application violated the Establishment and Free Exercise Clauses of the First Amendment to the U.S. Constitution and the Equal Protection Clause of the Fourteenth Amendment. We ask that you grant the application, as well as any similar applications that you may receive in the future.” – Americans United for Separation of Church and State

“The letter went into great detail about the relevant legal precedents, including details of interpreting and applying the First Amendment and other Constitutional protections. It cites many instances of legal recognition of Wicca as a religion entitled to First Amendment protections, including applications of the Religious Land Use and Institutionalized Persons Act, and landmark cases for minority religious rights such as Church of the Lukumi Babalu Aye, Inc v. City of Hialeah. They specifically state:

Your failure to recognize Priestess Hurley as a valid minister constitutes discrimination against the Wiccan faith and its adherents, in violation of three separate provisions of the U.S. Constitution.

The letter also addresses the only reason that the Clerk gave me for denying my application, pointing out that denying my application on the basis of not having a fixed address for my ministry is unsupportable based on the relevant sections of the Virginia code and would also discriminate against many other religious groups that meet at members’ homes or otherwise do not have a fixed address.”

Tuesday, Oct 21, she decided to make a go of it again after the court replied to the Americans United letter apologizing for an apparent “miscommunication”. “She { the clerk} had to go get approval from someone else; she said that the person who wrote the reply to Americans United for Separation of Church and State had to review my new application and paperwork. That took a little while, but she came back and said that it was approved, and then it was a matter of paying the fee, taking an oath to uphold the Constitution and the Constitution of Virginia and to do my duty fairly and impartially, and then I got the official authorization!”

The future outlook still isn’t as rosy as it might be, but this is certainly another step forward for the Wiccan faith, and pagans all over the country. With the fall of the Bush administration moratorium on Wiccan head stones and religious expression with in the armed forces, and now another step with the battle won over who can conduct your marriage, there is a lot yet to hope for.

We cannot win every battle, there are times when we just want to hang our heads, but keep in mind that you are not the only one, and just like Priestess Hurley, we do win some times.

“I am also deeply and sincerely grateful to everyone who supported me, especially Selena Fox, Ivo Dominguez, and my sisters in the Order of the White Moon; my thanks also go out to everyone who put energy into resolving this issue and making a positive difference for Pagan civil rights. The personal and magical support I got was amazing, and it made all the difference in the world. Thank you all.

I would like to particularly thank Americans United for Separation of Church and State, especially Ben Hazelwood, who worked with me directly. They sent the letters that showed the Arlington County Court in no uncertain terms that their actions were legally indefensible and got the court to clarify its requirements so that I could make this reapplication successful.

This is not the first time they have gone to bat for Pagan rights, either, as they were intimately involved with Selena Fox and the Lady Liberty League in bringing the Pentacle Quest to a successful conclusion. I strongly encourage all Pagans to support these organizations that are doing the hard work of defending our rights when we need it most.”

copyright 2012 Deacon Gray and the Graveyard press

Nearly a month ago this file was sent to me by some one whom I will not name, though I would encourage him to step forward if he is willing so people know exactly who did all the work involved. At that time I was dismayed by what I read. Yet, with contacts, family and friends all over the place I figured…hey lets give the man a chance to speak to the issue quietly before making a scene.

Several people I know, whom I also will  not name, who live within a few hours of Russell Mercado sent off inquires, and offers to talk on the phone or meet somewhere. It was answered with…well, it wasn’t answered at all. Much to my surprise I was informed late last night, that Russell Mercado has passed away.

I would like to say for the record that I personally really liked Russell. I didn’t know him well, but his posts where always respectful, in chat he was intelligent and well spoken. I have never heard of any drama from Russell or his house at any point. And yet…the file I was sent is pretty…well I will let you read it, and judge for your self.

Russell Mercado

the three soul paths in relation to the three roads

Postby Aislin Ni MorRhiaghan

The Three Soul Paths in Relation to the Three Roads

Aislin Ni MorRhiaghan, 2008

Plato considered that there were three basic soul types. These types were the healer, creator, and teacher. These soul types were found to be the basis for many of our past and present life roles and that our final type prior to incarnating, would be based upon a conglomeration of all of the types with the dominant type heading the way. Dominance in this case, being the soul type in which one has spent the better part of his or her incarnations. In Nightkind castes these soul types play a prominent role in how the roads function.

The Teacher/Ramkt

Ramkt are the priests and priestesses of our community. They are the scribes that keep the history of houses, maintain the spiritual education and serve as the harvester of energies during ritual. They officiate over rites and circles and have a quiet strength and distinguished presence. Generally these tend to be the scholars within the group and tend to be mentors to many different facets of the community. As they often pull from many different sources for their spiritual, psychic, and physical balance they are a wealth of knowledge and acumen. They embody the soul type of the teacher.

In Plato’s world the teachers were those who were well educated, schooled in philosophy, and often of a patrician class. The Ramkt of today is one that carries him or herself with the elegance and grace of a patrician but with the humility of a student. In actuality, the Ramkt could call themselves perpetual students as they are constantly researching, lecturing, or carrying out a pursuit that betters their Family, community, and their own intellectual and spiritual growth.

The Healer/Kitra

Kitra are the most graceful of all the castes. They are generally beautiful, intelligent, and carry themselves with a mixture of experience and humility. Kitras generally radiate sensuality, although they are far from the temple prostitutes of the old days nor are they the House concubines. In fact one would be hard pressed to avoid being put in one’s place while visiting such a comment on a Kitra, politely of course but still put in one’s place. Kitras are usually fluent in both dominant roles and submissive roles being a taker and giver of energies, but also of being a counselor to kitral (donors) and newly awakened members of the community. They generally are those who teach effective drawing methods and safe instruction for donors and vampyres alike.

As a healer, Kitra are often the soothing influence in heated situations. They tend to have a calming influence so much so that often simply being in their presence can evoke a feeling of calm. This is in part due to the personality of the Kitra which is fun loving, sincere, gentle, and nurturing. The other part is due to the ability of the Kitra to work fluently with different types of energy and especially in filtering techniques. Filtering is the ability to take in energy, cleanse it, and release it as purified and healthy energies. The residual energies are released and grounded out. Kitra are usually the empaths of the three and tend to be very susceptible to intense human emotions, situations, and environmental charges. As such a Kitra often knows when their ward or Kitral is not doing well, having trouble, or just not feeling well. As a counselor they understand the need for balance but they also understand the need for release and healing as one can not have one without the other.

The Creator/Mradu

When most people consider the Mradu path they consider the temple guardians, those who stand in watch over the energies of the rest of the group, especially the Kitra. As an energy worker the Mradu must maintain balance over mind, body, and spirit. He or she must also maintain a certain quiet dignity, a presence that neither invites nor dissuades the approach of others. He or she must be proficient in erecting shields, maintaining proper energy levels during ritual, and making sure that nothing penetrates that shield. Furthermore, a great knowledge of many different types of shielding and energies is important. They must be able to alter or construct a shield at a second’s notice. Thus they embody the creator soul type.

Creation is more than simple creativity. It is production and maintenance. The Mradu balances out the Kitra, who is by nature a very creative person but not always a creator in aspect. He or she does this by erecting shields when they are needed around the Kitra as well as around their general environment. They maintain the energies within it and act in a diplomatic fashion when necessary. Diplomacy is within itself a form of creation as it takes a great deal to persuade someone not to do something foolish. Instilling an environmental calm is yet another way in which the Mradu acts as Creator. This is done not only by filtering, but by refilling the filtered energies with created calm by harvesting, filtering, creating, and pushing outward.

Those who are Ronin and must by necessity be proficient in all three castes may run into the snare of moving against their basic soul type. While everyone has traits of one type or another we will all have one that is dominant. That dominant trait usually guides us to our caste. Working against the soul type or working within a typing that is a more recessive soul trait will bring difficulty until the person is awakened enough to activate the other traits. That rarely happens with Ronin only because they have no mentor within the community and they alone are responsible for their growth.


Tonight, the GraveYard Press staff is proud to introduce our newest writer, Jason Constantine. Jason will be in charge of all things music here at the GraveYard Press.

Jason Constantine has been a member of the community since 1997. He is originally from New York City and a former member of S.O.N. Gotham. Jason has been a musician for 30 years, his first band Misery was signed to Roadrunner Records in 1998. Jason now resides in Las Vegas and is the owner of Constantine Studios where he produces and records most of the local bands in Las Vegas. Jason has been nominated for numerous local awards in the Las Vegas area, and is an endorsed artist with Oktober Guitars, Jet City Amplification, MXR / Jim Dunlop and Spectraflex Guitar Cables.Jason is also the former house leader of The House Of Annunaki, and was the original owner of


Many people live their life in the bright light of day while hiding something that is chilling, frightening under a mask of normalcy.  Whether you grew up in a wealthy gated community, a typical suburb or the inner-city, bad things happen in dark corners. There are all manner of sins happening right next door, or in some cases between in the walls where we ourselves dwell every day.

Perhaps the reason why some people end up in fringe groups, including the vampire community, is to escape this façade or perhaps to make sense of it. Disci Moonwraith [a false name] is one of those people, one who found her way into our little corner of the world only to find that monsters lurk here too.

GYP: Disci, will you tell us a little about yourself?

Disci: I am a twenty four year old female from the north eastern United States, more than that would be saying too much and as we agreed I really don’t want the publicity of giving out too much information. Though I suppose that isn’t really what you had in mind with the question.

I suppose I should say, to help place all this in context, that I was your typical all American on the outside. I grew up without much material need, my stomach was full, I had a mother that read me bed time stories, and father that was the image of a man in nearly every way. It is easy enough to say I loved them both, but much harder to explain just how much, though I think many will understand without much further explanation. To put it simply, mine was a good life until my father passed away and that left a hole in my life, a hole that eventually lead me to where I am now.

GYP: I think when most people look at the Vampire Community they see a place where all the people involved are products of broken homes, or mental illness, but it sounds like you are pretty stable.

Disci: Thank you. I would be lying if I said everything has always, or is always a state of serenity.

GYP: I am sorry to ask you to share the details, the real reason you are being interviewed, but rather than prolong it perhaps it is better to simply pull the bandage off quickly?

Disci: Very well. My father passed away when I was around thirteen. The details are not important, but sufficed it say it was an impressionable time in my life. I found myself drifting, I had a hole in my life and with my mother in morning much of what I was doing was obscured by her veil of sorrow. She hardly noticed when I stopped hanging out with my old friends, didn’t bat an eye when my attire changed, and my grades started to slip.

Oh I know you might be picturing someone dressed in gothic attire, but I didn’t go that direction at all. I went more of a spiritual direction, Wicca to start with, but that was just a start.

For a while I tried to convince myself and others that I had found a new spiritual path in my life, from there I slipped into experimental aspects and met my first girlfriend. In an odd way I find it amusing that my father always warned me about unscrupulous men, but it was the more carefree exciting allure of a young lady that drew me into my first sexual experiments. Casey was a great person and she didn’t deserve what I brought to her life. Eventually she couldn’t handle it either. Darkness, the real kind, not that crap from movies seeps out of your soul I think. It infects others and leaves them stained with it. I know I feel stained by it sometimes, though today my Mask is firmly in place, and people see a bright pretty lady with all the things one could hope for in life more or less. But, I am getting ahead of myself.

GYP: When did you meet Matthew? [ also a fake name]

Disci: Aw, I see that my dodging around the subject didn’t last long. I was fifteen, he was much older, thirty two actually and he was-exciting. At the time I thought I had found someone my father would have been proud of. My mother liked him at once, and while she didn’t want him dating me, she did think it was ok for him to be around as a friend, a mentor and role model.

He smiled a lot, laughed and joked. He knew the music I listened too, and what was trending in the world nearly as well as I did. It seemed natural to fall for him, natural enough that I didn’t think twice when I made love to him the first time. He visited me at home, and my mother was bright enough to work out that were we in a romantic relationship, and once again on the surface everything was exactly as it should be.

He was polite and generous, always well dressed and well mannered, charming really. I am not even really sure when things started to go wrong. I know our love-making had become more rough, he left marks, but I wore them proudly, symbols of our love.

He took me places, clubs and concerts, I met his friends and they treated me really well. It was on one such night that he told me that he was part of the Vampire Community. I was intrigued.

Things slipped from rough love-making to “acting out fantasies” which were of course his fantasies. We “played rape” and there were times when I wasn’t playing, but after it was over he held me and called me a good girl. He would kiss my forehead and stroke my hair; it made me feel loved, just as the “play rape” made me feel dirty.

I delved deeper into my spiritualism; he shared articles he found on spiritual vampirism, on sexual vampirism and Eros types. I know it was foolish but I felt that draw so powerfully. It was like waking up and discovering that I wasn’t alone, that I was part of something bigger. I wanted to read everything to know everything about it and Matthew just happened to know some of the people in that community.

He explained to me that while a lot of people talked on yahoo groups, that many of them were fakes. Even I could see that was true. People argued and debated, fought like children about ridiculous stuff. Matthew, however, said he could help me learn, but first I had to be brought into a House.

He asked me if I accepted his authority as an Elder of the community and made it sound all so very dark and inviting. A new family, new friends–all I had to do was agree to allow him to bring me in to it all and swear to be loyal to his demands. I agreed. I shouldn’t have.

It was Halloween, we dressed up, he was in a black suit and cape, I was in a vinyl cat suit that was too small for me. He took me to a house, a place where a party was in full swing and said he wanted to get some drugs for the event. We had done a little pot before, even some “E”, but that night he was after meth. I told him I wanted no part of Meth, and he said that was ok, but that I had to come along, because my initiation was to take place in the same back room.

I remember walking into the room. It was dark and a few guys were standing around looking over leather crafts they were making, it smelled like leather and sweat, it tied me in knots, but I wanted to look cool and collected. I wanted them to like me.

One of them asked if I were ok with what was going to be taking place; If I accepted their conditions. I said that I did. I wanted so badly to be a part of a family again and I think had they simply asked, I would have done it anyway, but they didn’t ask.


Matthew grabbed me roughly and held my arms as one of them stuffed a ball gag into my mouth. By the time it was over all of them had their way with me. I was beaten, burned, and taken in nearly every way I could be. Matthew didn’t even look away when one of the guys gave him the small plastic bag of drugs. I didn’t know what to say when I realized I had just been sold sexually for Matthews drugs.

I was sobbing, but he came to me and held my head telling me what a good girl I was. I wish I could say I broke it all off. I wish I could say I ran like hell, or called the police but I didn’t. I stayed with him. He cried later and said he had no idea they would be so rough. I believed him.

He eventually took me to the Vampire House, it wasn’t even the same people but they accepted that I was his childer, and welcomed me. They were kind, and slowly I started to feel like one of them. I was another dark swan in the river of moon light. The wolves were at the shore, but the river swept me along. There is more to tell, there was the poly family I became a part of, the Master who refused to have sex with me because I looked to young, though I swore I was twenty two. Then there was our house Matriarch that forced me to get my GED and endeavor to become a medical assistant so I would have a career to fall back on

I think it would have kept on that way, but two things happened. One Matthew tried to sell me to a Mistress, and Two the Vampire House, saved my ass from becoming a real sexual slave.

The House leader, a very nice lady, found out that I wasn’t twenty two, because of her attempts at getting me into an MA program. That got her digging and it wasn’t long before she found out from a friend that Matthew had been in the process of selling me to a well-known harsh Mistress. It seemed insane, beyond comprehension that someone would try to sell another human being, but that was what he was trying to do.

She broke it all up and sent the rats into flight, then packaged me up and took me back home to my mother. We have remained close, and I don’t think I could have managed to pull myself together if it had not been for her help. She helped me get counseling, she got Matthew arrested for, as it turns out, failing to register as a sexual offender. It seems I was not his first good little girl; Just the easiest.

Today I really am in my twenties and I have managed to become a registered nurse. One of the things I really wanted to do though, before I leave this community forever was to find some of the people whose works I read. Some of them I wanted to chastise, some I wanted to thank.

GYP: I would like to this this is somewhat of an isolated thing. Would you say it is?

Disci: Yes and No. Certainly some aspects of my story are extreme. Yet, I see some of the same things around the community and find myself wondering at them. Poly families where bright people are sucked in by those who could not manage a moment of their own life, but on line play like they are Masters. I see people with broken spirits seeking desperately for love, acceptance and friendships in ways they cannot find in their real lives, and of course people who will take advantage of that desire.

I also see good people too. People like Balthazaar, like Miklya who work hard to help others out, to listen to be friends. I see a lot of good out there, good sincere people.

GYP: Do you have any advice to offer people in the community?

Disci: yes, if you look at the community a means of developing a “Life” you will never really find it. You have to make something of yourself, make a life worthy of you, not accept what passes for a life by allowing yourself to be sucked into things you cannot control. The only thing you can control in any environment or community is yourself.

GYP: Lastly, is there anyone you really look up to the community? Anyone you would like to say a few words too?

Disci: Yes, Mother thank you for seeing past what I had become, and at what I could be. Thank you for taking me home, and thank you for soaking up the tears, though I am sorry about the silk blouse.


There are all manner of sins happening right next door, or in some cases between in the walls where we ourselves dwell every day.  In every community there are bad things that happen. But there are good things too—a chance for community redemption.

In our community we have a chance to do the right things, to be compassionate, to be caring and to help those who need a shoulder to cry on.

Deacon Gray

Community Announcement

Posted: Tuesday, 29 May, 2012 by deacongray in Community Announcements

Official Notice To The Vampire Community;

Earlier today, May 29, 2012, it was brought to our attention and verified through law enforcement sources that ‘Justin Talon’ (Lord Griffin Alexander Talon), otherwise known by his legal name as Joseph Burgess, Jr., is a convicted sexual offender in the State of Michigan. He has also absconded from updating his registration with the sexual offender registry maintained by the State of Florida (his current location). Mr. Burgess was arrested on May 17, 2012 by the Jacksonville Florida Sheriff’s Department on additional felony charges (non-sexual) which he will answer at a hearing to be held next month. He is a member of multiple vampire-related Facebook groups and friends with a number of individuals in the vampire community. We remain cognizant of the legal rights afforded to Joseph Burgess, however, we feel that his established prior conviction and willful intent to repeatedly violate both the conditions of his probation and continued alleged illegal actions warrant vampire community notification at this time. As we have stated before, participants in the vampire community need to take the necessary steps to safeguard their privacy and be mindful of the trust they place in others.


Voices of the Vampire Community (VVC)