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Jan 18 2012 GYP-

Jutting out into the South China Sea, tropical Malaysia isn’t a country we here in the west hear much about. With a population of roughly twenty eight million people packed into a space slightly larger than New Mexico, it is a country of surprising Coastal plains, and jungle covered mountains. It is A mixture of natural beauty and a compact urban atmosphere.

If you are a vampire, it might seem the like a nearly perfect place to live, and it might just be that for the vampires that live in the area, if you can find any. You see even with a rich cultural diversity, “ Ethnic groups: Malay 53.3%, Chinese 26.0%, indigenous 11.8%, Indian 7.7%, others 1.2%.
Religions: Islam (60.4%), Buddhism (19.2%), Christianity (9.1%), Hinduism (6.3%), other/none (5.0%).”

There is a shockingly few amount of those who consider themselves Vampires, Otherkin or Therian. I found myself wondering why that might be, and with some luck I managed to find one of the rare individuals from that country that actually takes part in the on line vampire community.

So today we greet  Alixyveth Breyel from Malaysia.  Alix, will you tell us a little about yourself?



Alix: Well let’s see I am 22 years old and a record holder in Malaysia for endurance kickboxing, I am an alternative model and an abstract artist . I have a diploma in Early Childhood Education and I will be starting on a Psychology Degree this year. I aspire to be everything- Polymath. I was Born and raised in Malaysia. I come from a diverse family. I am part German American and part Ceylonese.

GYP: That must make things difficult. You have said before you are an Eros type vampire, I would think that is rather frowned upon in your country.


Alix: The vampire is viewed as something that does exist but as a damned spirit out of folk tales. The culture here does not generally believe in vampirism as we understand it. However, in the more rural areas we do have witch doctors and mediums that still practice folk magick. The people here do believe in the practice of magick and the paranormal.
Generally, at least in my generation and the generations before me, we were all told old wives tales, legends and about magick. If I were to practice magick it would be such an alien concept, however, to openly say that I am a human vampire would not go over very well. I don’t think they’d know how to comprehend it.



GYP: So In your culture it is the terminology that makes the difference? While people don’t believe in Human Vampires they might believe in say…energy transfere and magick?


Alix: In my culture the abilities are more accepted, yes the terminology does not fit as vampires are damned spirits. At least when I was being brought up believing in ghosts or the mystical aspects of life were not discouraged. It’s a lot better than them thinking I was mentally disturbed because I was and still am so damned intuitive. The people here do recognize the practice of magick and they believe in spirits and spirits are usually summoned and sent on their way to do their task. I have met mediums and metaphysics in Malaysia. As I have stated above, the magick that is practiced here is folk magick. While people here still visit mediums and witch doctors to the more orthodox population it is frowned upon. Due to there being a significant amount of orthodoxy in Malaysia most of these folk practices are viewed as ‘Black Magick’ because most of the time when people do go to see mediums its normally not to bring good on to others. I personally, do not believe in black or white magick. I believe magick is magick and its your responsibility to see how you use it.



GYP: So there aren’t any clubs or groups that you could join or be a part of?


Alix: There are no clubs or groups that are here. There aren’t any covens or houses either. I don’t think ive ever met another person in Malaysia who has professed to being a vampire. I do have plans to create my own movement the nature of it will most probably be some ‘radical’ form of artistic expression. I am also interested in sharing and gathering information from various people in Malaysia on their thoughts of the occult and spiritualism in general.

GYP: Do you think you would face a lot of issues if you did come out as a vampire?


Alix: If I was discreet about it I shouldn’t face any major issues.


GYP: It has to be hard to be who and what you are, and not have others you can talk too about it


Alix: Indeed it is difficult. There are other forms of oppression happening to me on a daily basis and I like to keep my night time activities to myself . I do not generally discuss vampirism with others even if I may have conversations with people on magick or the occult.

GYP: I would think that dealing with being in a Muslim country and a vampire has to be extremely stressful I have heard a lot about how Muslims feel when it comes to what they consider occult practices. Is there a lot of religious pressure?


Alix: There is a lot of religious pressure coming from the Muslims, especially. Islam in Malaysia is very close to being fanatical. For instance, there is no freedom of religion if an individual was born a Muslim they would not be able to convert to a different religion. Islam like all other orthodox religions find the practice of witchcraft or any form of occult practices to be heresy. Islam is the dominant religion in Malaysia and since the majority of the country’s ethnic population are Malay, you bet theres a hell of a lot of religious pressure. Sometimes their demands are just outrageous, a few years ago they tried to ban Yoga. Which I thought was hilarious.


GYP: I know it is hard there, and you have said before you would love to travel to other places and experience them, where would you go?


Alix: I suffer from severe wanderlust. I have been travelling for awhile now and as soon as I finish what I need to of my education. I do have plans to go back to America and visit some of my friends and family. I have always been fond of Europe and would like to go back there soon. Maybe try my hand at travel writing.


GYP: Well thank you for your time, and I look forward to speaking to you again very soon.


Alix: Thank you for talking to me, if not for the online vampire community this is a part of that I would have to keep totally hidden. I have made a lot of friends online, and though I have a hard time with some of the issues, I enjoy the people I meet. Its wonderful to muse and be mused.


Part three of this series is focused on the country of South Africa where a budding vampire community faces some the most difficult challenges one can face. “In the rural area’s they still hang people for being witches.”


Interview with a Vampire Combat Vet

Posted: Friday, 9 December, 2011 by deacongray in Community Articles
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Interview with a Vampire Vet

by Deacon Gray

-Mountain Home Air Force Base, Idaho

Before  T. Senior Master Sergeant ,leaves for the day he changes out of the groomed camouflage suit that is the everyday uniform of Air Force and into ”civvies” — in T.’s case, black jeans and a blood red T-shirt. It is normal for a Airmen to change clothes before leaving the base; by shedding his “cammies,” T. leaves behind the obligation to salute other Airmen in uniform. But for T., the change is also symbolic: as a Airmen who isVampiric, he looks forward to the end of each workday as a reprieve from hiding part of himself from everyone around him.

These days most of his time is spent sitting at a desk doing more administrative work then anything else, but this wasn’t always the case. Before settling in at Mountain Home, T. was part of an Air Force’s elite security forces squadron. “Four, six month tours, three in Iraq and one in Afghanistan.”

Unless you saw him at some gathering in New Orleans, or new York you probably would never see his darker side. “That’s the way it has to be. I am a professional, and you have to learn to balance your day side and your night side, without destroying either one. It is just part of having a professional career. For the most part the Military doesn’t care If you are different, as long as you do your job and don’t make a fuss.”

Balancing the different aspects of who and what he is, “I am a sanguine vampire, couldn’t you tell by my teeth and pale skin?” can be very difficult for all of us, but what happens when you take that aspect, that darker side outside of the dayside office and into a 24/7 combat environment?

I won’t say it was easy for me, also a combat vet, to even find very many vamps who have shared this experience. Most of the vamps and otherkin I have met that have served in combat zones really didn’t want to talk about it. “The day side is the day side my friend, not very many people are like you, hell you are nearly OUT.” But, in the resent search I found one who was willing to sit down over coffee and discuss the issues he faced overseas as a sanguine vampire.

For the interview we will call him simple “T” as he doesn’t want his day or night side name used. “Some people can mix those aspects of their life, I would prefer not to. People in my nightside life don’t need to know what I do for a living. I honestly think they would hold it against me.”

DG: Do you feel that the Vampire Community wouldn’t accept that you are military?

T: It isn’t that I think they would sneer, well not all of them, but I do think that people sometimes get vindictive on the internet and if they could get back at me by embarrassing me, they just might. I have watched others on line, you among them who says proudly that they are in the military only to have someone who is pissed off at you speak badly about your service or doubt your service completely. I personally won’t deal with that kind of thing very well. I personally would end up saying or doing something that might impact me on the dayside. You cannot trust the internet.

Me: I can understand that. So lets change topics, tell me about what it was like as a sanguine vampire in a combat zone for six months?

T: I was thrilled to get the chance, the first time, to go over there. I wanted to do something good, something that would matter in my life. Until you are really in the position to make a real difference in something, you really can’t know what that is like. When I took my patrol out on the roads looking for IED’s we often found them and got them dis-armed.

We stopped someone from getting killed. It is really that simple, if we had not been there doing the job someone would have died as a respect of that bomb. For a while the pace and adrenaline kept my head swimming and focused. I didn’t think much about my Sanguine needs, I just went day to day, but stuff happens and pretty soon people around me started noticing that I wasn’t as sharp as I should be. Oh sure we had energy drinks, and I got plenty of sleep and exercise, but I was dragging ass.

I think it was at the four month mark that I started to really get the feel of what I was missing. There really just isn’t any way around it and for me nothing I used as a substitute really worked. It would be a lie to say that acted my best, or did the right thing 100% of the time. I didn’t.

Thinking about the mission was always at the fore front of my mind, but thinking about blood started creeping up a lot more. I decided I had to do something so I took a Army Combat Lifesaver course, it gave me the chance to do administer IV’s and while not really ethical I did get a taste or two. It helped and people noticed.”

Me: That sounds…well gross. I mean I know the military has high standards when it comes to STD’s but still. Didn’t you worry about getting caught or sick?”

T: Of course I did. You never realize just how isolated you are from everyone as you do when you are in combat forced to live in tight quarters without a means to be yourself. You never forget what will happen if you present who you really are to others.

I was keenly aware that if I got caught, the psych docs would have me under observation for months, and the notes would be in my file for years. Hell I could have gotten a full psych retirement, but that’s not really what I was after. I just wanted to feel like myself again. I wanted my edge back, feeling like a knife whose blade has been blunted by the pressure of service isn’t a good feeling. Being in charge of troops made it harder yet.

Me: You said you served four of these six month tours, that’s two years of dealing with the same issue. You must have devised some plan, some method for coping with it.

T: I did at some point in the second tour. Our unit had a service member come in as a logistics officer. She was a great lady with bright eyes and a tempting little smile. I don’t know what it was but I knew her right away, and she picked up on me pretty quick too. Some people call it the Beacon, but I think that’s bull. I think your eye just finds the familiar, and we were familiar to each other. It helped that she work a bladed Ankh ring.

As it turns out she wasn’t one of us at all, but she was well versed in our community. It took a little time but eventually she came to me offering to be a donor. She was with the unit for the following tours but her rank eventually got in the way. It’s a long story ending in marriage and bloodshed, in a good way.

Me: that can’t be the answer for everyone though. Do you have any advice for other soldiers?

T: You know that is hard to speak about even anonymously. I think I would say really lean to conserve yourself. Energy feeding might not be an option for everyone, but energy conservation is. We can learn not to burn up so much of ourselves. I think anything more than that and people would have to ask me one on one.

Me: Finally, would you suggest a military career for someone who is a Sanguine vampire?

T: You know I would. I would just be sure to tell them to really be certain of which field you get into. In the medical field a lot of these issues are non-starters. You can get blood just by asking your buddies to let you practice your blood draw skills. It isn’t as easy for say a truck driver or cook. No matter what you have to be careful. Even the pagan groups don’t support vamps, and no liberal group is going to come out screaming for vampire equal rights. You simply won’t see the ACLU taking up your case.

You have to be aware of your career, aware that bad things can happen to you professionally, and then consider if that risk is something reasonable when you are in a combat environment. Do you really need another thing to worry about?

In our community the vamps inside it don’t really support you if you are vet. The moment you are gone, you are forgotten, when you get back they think everything will be the same. Facebook hellos just don’t mean as much when you are isolated.

Me: Well thank you for talking to me today, I would love to ask you more, but I think I have already made this longer than most people would like. I do have one more question for you if you don’t mind me asking. Do you feel a special kinship with the Gay and Lesbian’s in the military?

T:  You know what, there are assholes of every sexuality, and there are good people in every sexuality. The thing is this, gays can come out of the closet now, and I am so excited to hear about that for them, to see that they can stop hiding if they want too. I can’t help but to also know that in my regard that simply isn’t going to happen.


We must have talked for more than two hours after the interview and chiefly what I got from him was this. There are certain struggles only combat vets will ever face to face, but that is a choice they made when they signed up. We each have to do what we need to, but we cannot forget the bigger picture and the impact our choices make on those around us. You cannot decide to become a vampire, but you can decide to really research where your choices can lead you, and what can happen as a result of your vampire side.



-note: Thank you to T. for agreeing to let me write this piece. I know there are a lot of issues you are dealing with, and I hope the 3 hours were a reprieve not an aggravating factor.